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| It's always hard to leave somethng you've grown attached to for so long. Especially when you get to know the special things about it already and are so comfortable with it. But there comes a point in time when you know you have to leave certain things behind and take on a new path, because although it may be rocky and difficult at first, eventually you learn new things and grow into a better person.
The same goes for my very first year of college. During most of the first semester, I tried to cope with all the changes and the fact that I could no longer be with my closest friends, or could no longer run to them as much everytime i needed help. Last year has been all about change and although i was resilient enough, there was a huge part of me that was too stubborn to let some things go. And although it's already been almost a year and I might very well be the one of the last people to do it, i'm letting it all go. Highschool, REP, last summer, looney alley/avenue Q, first and second sem, everything. Not that i'm going to forget it all and pretend it never happened, but i'm just keeping them in a box and sealing it for now. I've held on to them for too long that it sometimes hindered me from certain things. Don't get me wrong, i'm not turning my back on my friends, of course not. I'm just finally closing that part and starting a new one.
And so with much contemplation, I am starting another adventure.
My new
blog:
http://sunsetcradle.livejournal.com/
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| What's on the other side?
I am once again procrastinating for the nth time by hopping from one blog or multiply page to another. Why is it that I always find some way to do every other possible thing than what i'm actually supposed to do? And I wonder why I don't get enough sleep. Geez Tricia, 2 days na nga lang eh!!
I think i'm craving for a fresh new start. After all, this summer would be the first time in 4 straight years that i will not have joined REP's summer workshops. It's become too much of a comfort zone for me already and I have so many other things I know i'm itching to do. Not going back there everyday for the next two months though is indeed going to be an ultimate sacrifice. Some of the most unforgettable and happiest days of my life were spent there.But i'm 18(blech) and want to do a lot of other things too. Again, time is not exactly on my side. (then again, when was he ever?)
Two more days to go before my finals are over. I was exempted from my Environmental Science finals though, *rejoice!!!* but I still have a paper for Literature that I have to write (but obviously am not), and a Play on "The Brute" to do. Haha, I don't know if I mentioned my most recent suicide attempt, but I somehow got myself into the mess of being the DIRECTOR of the play we're doing. Nobody wanted to do it and well, since I sort of already had a mental picture of how things would go, I volunteered to direct. The play is on Friday by the way, and rehearsals begin tomorrow. HAHA. Two days to produce an A, here we go! I just realized that I DO have the power to multi-task. The past 3 weeks have been nothing but multi-tasking left and right. I finally got the hang of it! So it's gonna be really difficult for me when the short summer break that I have comes (I have summer classes) coz i'm gonna be uber restless. Oh well, that's not a prob. Can you say "SLOTH"?
Two more days till finals and all academic requirements are over.Two more days till the end of my first ever year in college. Two more days till the end of my new beginning. Two more days till the start of a newer one. Two more days before I lose my mind.....again. I feel like a little kid peeking through the hole in a picket fence, wanting to see the other side. I just wish I could take a peek into the future.
I think I just might transfer to livejournal. Things look greener on that field.
that's a new start, isn't it?
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Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast)
By Jonathan Larson, Jeff Potter, Anthony Jackson, Daniel A. Weiss, Ira Siegel, Kenny Brescia, Steve Skinner, Adam Pascal, Aiko Nakasone, Anthony Rapp, Byron Utley, Daphne Rubin-Vega, Fredi Walker, Gilles Chiasson, Gwen Stewart, Idina Menzel, Jesse L. Martin, Kristen Lee Kelly, Rodney Hicks, Stevie Wonder, Taye Diggs, Timothy Britten Parker, Wilson Jermaine Heredia
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SURVEY from Nikki 
Seven Sections:
a
n g e r section?
do you have a
quick temper?: yes, when I’m
feeling moody.
what do you do
when you're mad?: either make
dabog or keep it inside.
what's the
worst thing you've done when you were mad?:
Jas would know the answer to that ;)
usually it would be the silent
treatment, or the complete opposite, hehe.
if you can
take back time, would you have never done this?:
they were mostly instincts or a way of releasing super duper inis-ness. But yeah, I would have not
done some of them.
ever made
anyone cry when you were mad?: I don’t know….it’s mostly me who does
the crying even if I’m the one who’s mad.
ever
physically hurt someone when you were mad?: uuuhhh…. I dunno! (jas? did
I??)
do you curse
when you're mad?: I get the urge to sometimes, but no.
c r y i n g section?
when was the
last time you really cried your heart out?: hmmm… January.
ever cried
yourself to sleep?: oh boy.
ever cried on
your friend's shoulder?: probably not specifically on their shoulders,
haha. But I don’t like having people see me cry.
ever cried over the opposite sex?: nooneenooneenoo… =*
do you cry
when you get an injury?: I don’t remember the last time I got a
serious injury, but I probably would!
do certain
songs make you cry?: yep. And a LOT
make me cringe lately.
can you make
yourself cry?: surprisingly yes, even if I don’t mean to!
p a i n section?
what's the
hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: hmmm….i don’t know what
others classify as hard, but I would say
the past year has been the hardest so far in terms of EVERYTHING.
what's the
worst thing you've done to yourself?: uuhhh… not eat and work myself
to death?
what's the
worst thing you've done to somebody else?: backstab I guess…. I
everyone has done that at least once in their lives.
ever had a
painful break up?: nope.
what about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: I don’t have that. I can’t stand being
depressed/mad.
how depressed
can you get?: you won’t see me smiling all day. and that’s SOMETHING.
do you inflict
pain on yourself?: course not.
that's stupid. (- I agree, nikki!)
h a p p y section?
are you
normally a happy person?: I think I may tend to be overly-happy
sometimes =D
what can make
you happy?: family, friends, movies, music, theater, pakwan, unusual
stuffed animals, coffee, inflicting people with my weirdness, almost anything under
the sun.
do you wish
you were happier?: sometimes.
what makes you
the happiest?: being in neverland with the people I love.
what about
being with your friends; does that make you happy?: oh yes.
very much. =D
can music make
you happy?: OH YEAH. Music is life!
l o v e section?
how many times
have you had your heart broken?: lotsa times. Whenever something
ends, my insides just crash. But only one time was coz of a person, I guess.
do you still
have feelings for any of your old significant others? Significant others?
have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd
die for them?: my family
did you ever
love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: not
exactly
ever loved
someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: guess you could say that?
has anyone
besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?:
erm, not to my face.
ever stopped a
relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?:
n/a. but hello, that’d be so lame!
h a t e section?
who do you
actually hate?: I don’t wanna seriously hate anyone, therefore I don’t.
Ever made a
hit list?: not a serious one, haha.
have you ever
been on a hit list?: i sure hope not =p
are you a mean
bully?: to my sister and a few selected friends, hehehehe =D
do you hate
any one that breaks your heart?: I’d probably say it to myself but wouldn’t
really mean it.
do you hate
George Bush?: i don't care. hehehe.
s e l f - e s t e e m section?
is your self-esteem
extremely low?: not extremely.
do you believe
in yourself?: most of the time.
when people
say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: some of the time
are you one of
those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: haha. at
times.
ever wanted to
kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: no. just
bury myself underground for some time.
are you happy
with who you are?: eeeeyeah
do you wish
you can be someone else?: some of the time.
ok, back to work. My 3 hell weeks are half-over, so....till then! i've got lots to talk about. hopefully, i'll remember by the end of the last hell week 
I WANNA WATCH RENT!!!!!!
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Weekend Madness
First of all, congratulations to the cast and crew of SWEET CHARITY!!! Everything went great, and the performers were awesome. Makes me wish I were up there with you! Oh well, at least my dream of wanting to be an usherette was fulfilled. One dream down! hehehe. click here for pictures, courtesy of my twin: http://princessity.multiply.com/photos/album/24
My lower body really friggin' aches from our P.E. finals yesterday. As luck should have it, the only P.E. class that fit my class schedule and wasn't so early in the morning was running. Thus, our finals were to participate in the "FUN RUN" yesterday morning. Saturday night, I prepped myself up to do the maaany things I needed this week, so I made a list of thigns to do. It filled up 3/4's of the page. But nevermind, as long as I geared myself all up for it and convinced myself that I could finish it, I would. Suddenly over dinner, my mom decides she wants to watch a movie. She hasn't gone to the movie house to watch a film in years because she ends up falling asleep (which is partly why I don't get to see much movies with my family anymore), and out of the blue she decides to see Brokeback Mountain! Greeeeaat. So while she, kuya, ate and ate pat went out to watch that, I was left alone at home. Doing my stupid report for Fil. I finally finished at 1 and slept at around 1:30, then woke up at 3:30 for the said "FUN RUN" around the WHOLE ATENEO CAMPUS on a sunday morning. 5 am to be exact. After going through CAT training in 4th year, I thought I could take anything and it wouldn't be as hard anymore.....until I met Running. Poor Eya didn't even get any sleep at ALL. (yan kasi, party ng party! ) Well, at least I finished it! 5 kilometrers in exactly 32.33 minutes. Woohoo. I hope that isn't an F. ( I think our time limit was supposed to be 30 mins)
Anyhoo. Before that unfortunate night of mine, our English block was required to watch the play "Gabriela" in UP. Aside from me laughing about it before the play as it constantly reminded me of Peachy, I was so amazed by the whole show! It was a joint production by the Dulaang UP, UP vocal ensemble and the UP Filipiniana Dancers. Oh my, it was really something. Even their props and background designs, and every one of them was overflowing with expression. Woweee. Had a short but great kaffeeklatsch with Jas in the Starbucks beside Chilli's after. It was so hard, cramming all of our stories within 2 hours or so. It's so difficult having a plok life without you!! and all those everyday madness-situations as well. This summer let's do it a lot more until we get sick of each other! (although that probably can't happen).
All Hell Breaks Loose in 5...4...3...2...
Today marks the official start of the 3 weeks of hell to come. The whole week ahead of me is already planned out and fully loaded all the way until Sunday when my groupmates and I visit Quiapo for English. Which is why I am procrastinating now by writing here because I know I won't be able to and can't be tempted to in the next few days. But it's great that I get to laugh constantly and sometimes non-stoply everyday. I swear, if it wasn't for my ka-cornihan, kababawan and my little everyday stupidities with my friends, I would have combusted ages ago. And "plok" sightings are getting more frequent sooo... it keeps me balanced,haha. Oh well, that's all for now. Hope I get out of the next 3 weeks alive to update this again soon. Ciao.
"And she lived HOPEFULLY ever after....." -Sweet Charity
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Ok, ang labo. When Peachy typed in my name, Tricia meant "Full of bees". When i tried it, it came out to mean "sexually stunning". I was gonna copy and paste it here but it got lost so i typed it again, and suddenly it meant "a lewd street performer". After another try it meant "like a banana peel", "a brand of soylent green breakfast cereal", and finally I was made to stop when it read "extremely flatulent". I was trying to get some of the better ones that came out, but i decided to stick with the one given here instead.
Now THIS fits just right!! The first time Peachy typed this name in, what came out was: "a person with questionable sanity capable of forming their own cults". Hmmm.... guess JP's right. Patring IS more interesting,hahaha. (but man, do i despise that name.)
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